Thursday, January 29, 2009

looking at my arms...

Ive realized I have a lot more permanant scars than I thought. Some of them are raised others have chunks of skin missing. But most are discoloration of my skin. Its a weird purplish pink color. My failure scar doesnt seem to be going away at all, which is mildly depressing. I need to rememeber never to cut words into my arm. Way to noticable.

Ahh speaking of which my parents saw the new cuts on my arms. I didnt do laundry and all I had were short sleeves. And I had to promise Id never do it again. So now I could either not cut anymore, cut on my arm and cover them up, or just cut somewhere else.

ohhh anyway these are some songs that have cutting in them

papa roach last resort

ssenses fail bloody romance

aiden we sleep forever

hawthorne heights ohio is for lovers

1 comment:

  1. Andrea:

    Hey sweetie! thanks so much for following my blogs. I think that is very neat from you but I just wanted to also tell you that I know where you are coming from with all the cutting thing. I don't know if I wrote it on my blogs already but I was a cutter and even though I am overweight and right now pregnant, I used to suffer from eating disorders. I had a very bad life before now. I lost a kid at 16 and at 17 I was raped twice. I was physically abused by my mother who has at least two mental illnesses; she's bipolar and Obsessive Compulsive, and my dad hit me quite a few times too. You will read it all in my AmongTheDead blog. I don't know if you have noticed that the blog mentioned above is actually a book that I am writing. Well, sorry if I am venting or so but I just wanted to tell you a bit about me and also let you know that you can count on me for support.